Twelve +/- Months of Zuska 2014

Dec 06 2014 Published by under Daily Struggles, Positive Actions

It was not a good year for blogging.  But what the heck, according to Drugmonkey's meme, here's the year in review.

January So, this is not the way I imagined breaking my writer's block.

February Not you, I bet!

March It struck me the other day that I now have a small and growing elder care section in my personal library.

April *crickets*

May I see the Google doodle today is in honor of Dorothy Hodgkin's birthday.

June My theory, which is mine: it shows why Einstein was wrong!

July Disorganization.

August So thanks, guys.

September Last night was it.

And...that was it for the year.  Prophetic, that last line, no?

I had envisioned this year as the time when I would nurture the withered stalk that had been my writing life and watch it come to blossom again, in whatever so small and self-satisfying a world it exists. But this year people I loved were in need, and/or ill, and some of them died, and then it came winter and year's end.

The days are short now and it's the time of year when the lack of light makes me gloomy but I'm going to resist that as much as possible. This week I got my basement waterproofed and as crazy as it may seem, that one unglamorous household improvement has buoyed my spirits. It's a dreary rainy day but I can tell myself: there won't be any water in the basement! So I don't care if it rains! (sorry, all you other folks who are still getting water in your basements. I know you still suffer. May waterproofing come your way soon.)

I've been through two and a half years of near continual worry and stress and grief and loss. It's no good waiting for everything to clear up in life to spare some attention for mundane happiness. And it does need attention.  The good and the bad are all mixed up together. If I don't look carefully I will miss the good bits because the bad is always eager to overshadow. I will try to focus on good things when they come along.  Whether it is a water-proofed basement or a bowl of chocolate yogurt or an entire day without migraine, I'll give myself permission to enjoy. Maybe this will help with the writing, who knows? We'll see!

One response so far

  • Connie says:

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