Perhaps my three remaining readers have been wondering just that.
(BTW, thanks Cara, for yelling at the spambots for me in my absence. I cleared out a bunch of spam and then moved your comments since the spam was no longer there for you to be yelling at. If you want me to put them back I will, just leave a comment here.)
The short sad story is that since the end of January, I've been beset with migraines on a daily basis. I think I've had maybe a week's worth of days scattered here and there when I didn't have headache for at least some portion of the day. Sometimes when Mr. Z asks me if my head is hurting I have to think about it for a minute because I can hardly remember what it feels like for it not to hurt.
Today I was good until about fifteen minutes ago, and now the headache is starting. Yesterday I was sick all day and missed Easter with Mr. Z's parents.
Anyhoo, I tell you this not to garner murmurs of sympathy, but to let you know why this blog has been so silent. I just have not had the energy or enough time without headache to put together a blog post (or even clear out spam). Expect posting to be highly erratic, if at all, in the near future.
I am hopeful, though, that I may soon get the migraines under some control again. This all started with a strained rotator cuff. The docs figured the chronic migraines + poor posture + sleeping on left side added up to strain on the left rotator cuff. I began physical therapy for it, and suddenly the migraines worsened despite a fresh botox treatment. So then the docs figured that the work on the muscles, which was good for the rotator cuff, was affecting nerves in some feedback loop and causing migraines. Get it? Migraines lead to strained rotator cuff, and fixing strained rotator cuff leads to migraines! Yippee! Another factor was the absolutely bizarre winter we had, unnaturally warm and very changeable from day to day. Rapid weather changes almost never play nice with the head. It was all a big mess. By now, though, I've mostly got the rotator cuff under control and am getting PT for the migraines - who knew there was such a thing? But it does seem to be helping - sometimes a day and a half or even two days relief after a session. And coming up soon, my next botox treatment. Maybe by the beginning of May I'll be back to my old regular migraine schedule and can pick up blogging again! Keep your fingers crossed!
Even though the PT is working, and even though my insurance says I get to have 60 PT visits in a calendar year, it turns out that after you go 25 times they put you under "review". This means they stop paying for your PT while they think about whether or not you really deserve to have health care. One to three months later, when they finally decide whether or not you are worthy, the decision comes forth: either they pay for the PT you've been getting, or you are stuck with the bill. Of course, you can wait three months for them to decide, but if you can go three months without PT, did you really need it in the first place? This is known as "having generous PT coverage" in your health insurance and one should be grateful for it. Pray to be fixed by visit 60, and not to have anything else go wrong the rest of the year. Also pray that the insurance gods consider your rotator cuff and migraine issues separate enough that they will allow PT for the migraine even if the rotator cuff seems to be mostly (though not completely) cleared up. While you are doing all this, brace yourself for the next round of begging said insurance company to cover your botox treatments, because Treatment No. 4 of the alloted four treatments is this month, and you have to convince them again that nothing else works and you really do need botox and you weren't magically cured in the past year. Good luck! And try not to be terrified when you see an ad from your insurance provider promising to help companies "manage" the "5% of your employees responsible for 20% of your healthcare costs".
Well, thanks for listening to the whining. I hope to see you back here soon, with more cheerful sorts of rants and commentary.